everything okay

The last couple of years, Osiris and I have spent New Year’s Eve just going out to bars by ourselves.  I love hanging out with friends and making plans and sharing experiences, but for a night that’s already so full of expectation and anticipation, it’s always good to avoid any unnecessary anxiety about coordinating plans.  These are the things I continue to realize as I grow older.  It’s part of a series of revelations I’ve had about things I was warned of when I was younger but I just wasn’t ready to hear.  Some things you just have to learn for yourself.

I don’t generally make new year’s resolutions.  I never remember or keep them, so why punish myself?  Instead I will just try to keep my mind open to adulthood and responsibility, to do what needs to be done and try to whine less.  I have goals, naturally, but keeping strict deadlines with myself has never been a strength.  It never occurred to me to make a one-, five- or ten-year plan.  So instead I will just continue to be myself in all my creativity and ambition wrapped in laziness and exhaustion but strive to shift the balance of these characteristics.

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About apheckel

one world at a time.
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One Response to everything okay

  1. Charlotte says:

    You’re cool.

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